May 2010
3 posts
8 Mile and rap
Now I’m a bit of a fan of eminem- and part of me says ‘nah, you’re an opera loving genderqueer queer… so … why?’
Well, I like the way he uses words and rhythms, I like some of what he writes- before I perform onstage I listen to “8 mile” in my head as it sums up that nervousness and worry before stepping onstage.
And “Cleaning out my...
Open letter to the 30 people who have ignored me...
Fuck you!
Seriously. Person gets on bus with cane and everyone of your pampered able bodied wankers blanks them (Oh and when the bus stops at the main stop you are ALL abled bodied and rushed to the exit) not even a ‘ahem’ will cause you to acknowledge them.
So you sit there for two stops in your ‘please give up for those less able to stand’ seats and ignore me.
Being...
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What can happen at Wotever?
You never know what you will see at Wotever
Every Tuesday night is different, it is an open mic, open stage, and open decks. Performers book in with Ingo up to months in advance to match their schedules or come along on short notice as complete surprises. The acts on stage amuse, excite, entertain, and sometimes in unexpected ways they move you. It may be someone you’ve never seen before...
April 2010
1 post
Open letter to all performers and Promoters I work...
My apologies for a mass open posting but trying to get everyone. Flickr has classified all of my photostream as “Restricted” which is used mostly for Hardcore photos on Flickr. I have contacted them to understand why as no full frontal nudity or fetish photos have ever been published on my Flickr. This means that any links to my photos are currently “broken” as they require...
March 2010
3 posts
TransGender day of visibility
Posted on my internal blog at my (corporate) work in a moment of bravado.
Today is the Transgendered day of visibility. So in the spirit of that, I am blogging to be part of this visibility. For what it is worth, my identity is GenderQueer not TransGendered*, but I’m not one to quibble over fine distinctions when people world wide are talking about visibility of a minority. I know most...
There's Cleo and Me-o and a bit of memory.. →
Just before my 30th Birthday I fell and cracked a bathtub with my skull. The resulting scrambling of my neurons gave me a memory issue…well I might remember things but I have a bad ‘meta-memory’- knowing what I know, or accessing memories is still very difficult.
Until I came to London (and had to start laying down a whole lot of new memories) my life prior to my 30th Birthday was known only from...
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I think I write bad poetry -Thames v3
The low tide Thames lays bare
the ground I am chained to
the grey gold red in the summer twighlight
flows past like always
And I am asked to repent
as they must have
chained here
feeling the tide rise
but I say no
there is nothing to be forgiven for
honour in action and inaction
if not quite of orchid poise and style
always with
the strain of honour
And the river rushes past
brown...
January 2010
3 posts
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A letter sent to the RVT re Queer Question Time
Hi team, You know me, and you know how much I love the RVT and the work you have done to make the Wotever people so welcome in the space. It was great last week not only to perform, but to see films giving a dignified voice to sex workers across the European Union, at Bar Wotever. I am sad to say that I am boycotting the Queer Question Time at the RVT. The presence of a panelist who has made,and...
Why I hate you all!
I don’t care if you are an international student, I don’t care about where you are from, I can see that some of you might be coming from somewhere other than the pub, but here, if someone with a cane walks on a bus in the cold, ONE of you overly pampered self important fucks should get up and offer a seat. But no- even the Eye Contact of DOOM is lost on you all.
And to those pushing...
Why I hate you!
When you are walking 4 abreast on the footpath, it is icy, and there is someone walking with a cane coming towards you. Do you:
A) move aside to let that person past on the gritted clear area
B) ignore them, bowl past pushing them into the ice.
If you chose B) you are the people I met walking to the pub and you, my self absorbed, self important dears can all suck this cripples cock!
December 2009
3 posts
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Back of the pub tonight
A bit of GBH went down
back of the pub tonight
along the park path and bench
kicks to the head, body, a knife slid in
We came out for a fag and goodbye
full of song, voice and life
to the sirens
lights of the ambo
Above the noise of the intersection
a few yells
Our friends arrive breathless
They’ve stood duty over the way
relying on numbers, witnesses to stop
anything more
...
Stop walking into me!
Backstory: mid size mid height cane weilder without the ability to duck and weave (hence cane) so…
Stop.Walking.Into.Me
I don’t care if you have an umbrella, a case or if you are a lost tourist! You walked into my very clear walking space, jostling me around, and…you don’t even think you should say sorry or acknowledge you nearly took out my eye!
You can in all...
“Then there is that frightful place the Elephant and Castle, where a man may go...”
– From a 1948 speach in British Parliment about Road Signage..The Hansard Record
I must say while improved, finding a street name from a car is impossible..
November 2009
1 post
Conversation post show
P - Promoter
M- Me...
A - Act we were talking to..
A- So P, who do you use to document your shows
P- Oh, M as always...
A- So M, do you do video?
M- No I'm a photographer
A turns from me, looking in disgust
A- No P, who do you use?
...
And I was invisible for the rest of the conversation...
Somehow I doubt I will be photographing any of A's shows
October 2009
2 posts
More communications with Mother
Tired more communications with mother- this time a “newsy” email about a non-controversial topic
“A trip to the Zoo with my lover”
Complete with pictures
Then added in more touchy subjects in passing
“Wotever are fun and we do good community work”
Will post an update when I get a reply…
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Small rant...aka Or why I can't talk to my mother
See I have this problem with my mother.
She constantly demands “newsy emails” and longs for phone calls. Well I am her child and I do live on the other side of the world in a different time zone.
The problem isn’t that she wants the news..it is more her reaction when I tell her what I am up to in any sort of honest form.
What my mother wants to hear
I’ve decided to get...
September 2009
7 posts
Counsel killed as "Batty" boy →
2 years ago my work called a project “Batty”. I put my self on the line and raised this as an issue to management. Of the managers involved one understood immediately and apologised. The others needed a small education.
The project changed name overnight without any fuss and “Batty” is not used by anyone.
It is sad that it is still a term of abuse a homophobia. And that...
Did you mean putch or butch?
I mean Putch…A femme(ine) masculine..a femme in butches clothing..but more than that, a camp gentleman, in suit with jewellery and makeup…
I wrote the below in 2005 when I first congealed this into a thought, although it has had a few edits:
For the record…I am queer- I identify if pushed into a gender role as Putch- I am lesbian- which I prefer as a label to dyke (becuase I...
“I’m the sort of Lesbian who loves cock, not in me, but all around...”
– Miriam Margoyles on ‘Sucking off’ during her Cambridge education and the reason why a 68 year old lesbian actress is my latest crush.
“It will have to be an underground showing of the Lovers & Fighters...”
– Discussing the bootleg showing of the queer performance film “The Lovers and Fighters Convention” which will show in October in an American Salvation Army Retirement home near you..
Why I have an ulcer
(Long discussion about why 10 people turned up to a 30 minute meeting I had to wing in the face of coworker apathy)
Me: ...so why if they all hate us are 6-10 people turning up to each one- and staying listening?
CoWorker: I don't know..
Me: Isn't knowing the developers and what drives them your role?
CoWorker: Well I don't want to be doing my role, I want something like liaison with (outside body) or the representative for developers in (shiny project). I've already emailed (current boss) and asked to be given those jobs.
Suddenly I understand why I have an ulcer....
August 2009
11 posts
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Conversation in Essex upon returning from the...
"Er mate you've got some eye make up there?"
As if i had aquired it by accident and was unaware.
"What for?"
I replied the only thing I could imagine replying and still being able to walk away
"Style"
“Know this, Republicans.Even the most right wing British politician...”
– Stephen Fry sums up #welovethenhs perfectly in 140 characters
#welovetheNHS -Brilliant reading →
The UK decides the US Republican NHS misinformation gone too far and fights back via twitter.
But what you get are hundereds/thousands of lifes stories in 140 characters.
Like all twitter from the profound to the mundane
We’re mammals clinging to a rock, destined to die. Yet some underpaid, wonderful ppl make it their duty to fix us. Incredible. #WelovetheNHS -Rufus Hound
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Memory fail
Head injury at 30 (cracked bathtub with skull, skull survived, meta memory shot to hell) means I don’t recall things well sometimes. If at all.
Just had a major memory fail at work- totally forgetting something I had to do yesterday. It’s not so bad, I need to make a few calls and write an email.
Panic now sets in though. What else have I forgot. What a flake I must appear.
...
11 things- NSFW →
This, and many other 11 things are brilliantly funny…
Best line on TV tonight
Reading the Daily Mail (UK):
Don't go outside, it is full of blacks, queers, and crime.....If only Diana were here